Wednesday, October 22, 2014

A Letter to the Lord

Loving God,

Thank you for this day. Thank you for the smell and sound of rain, for people who wake up early to make me coffee with a smile and a "how are you?".

It really means the world.

Thanks also for Fall, God! It's truly one of my favorite seasons.

And God,

Today especially, thank you for your relentless love.

God, it all just hit me super fast, one minute I was fine, and the next I felt like it was all crashing down on me.

It's hitting me today too Lord. That I can't do it on my own and that i'm not supposed to. That you didn't design us as machines to operate nonstop and without breaks but that you designed us uniquely and creatively to be salt and light to the earth but also to live out of our Belovedness as sons and daughters and not to get our worth out of our work-how much we do or who people say that we are.

So today Lord, would you draw near? Would you give me the strength and food I need to live this day faithfully, not out of a desire to be known for my own sake or to do my own will but yours, Lord?

On Earth as it is in heaven, give me, give us, Your ears to hear things the way you do, Your eyes to see what we would otherwise be quick to ignore and Your hands to do your work.

Lord, all that I am, I lay it down.


Sunday, October 19, 2014

pumpkins and patches

Cheers to friends and sunshine and a God who created it all. I may be regretting this trip to the pumpkin patch in a few hours when I'm still up working on this paper but I'll say it was worth it!

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Thoughts on relationships and being human

Life has been a lot of things lately.

Mostly good, new and exciting.

But also not so good.

There are a lot of not so good things I've been purposely avoiding because it hurts to think about them and then there are things I have been ignoring because I'm removed from them and it's easier that way.

Even still, I'm kind of in awe of it all and super thankful for it.

For how life works and the blessing and hardship that it is to be a human.

How it is that God not only puts up with us but faithfully and relentlessly loves us, parents us, teaches us the way in which to go time and time again even when we inevitably disobey or fail him.

We give up. He persists.

We fall down. He picks us up.

We mess up. He forgives.

I am so ungracious with myself and others so easily and I often wonder why that is. Why it is that being in relationship with others is so dang hard.

And yet, God trusts us to be in relationship with one another when he could just as easily have kept us to Himself (not that that's in His nature). Trusts us to love and care for one another, to be reconciled with one another. Man.

This resonates with me right now as I've messed up a lot in the relational department lately.

God is faithful, honest, and constant and I desire to be more like that.